I had to start blogging again, its been far too long since i last wrote. Lately the big talk is revolve around weddings. Recently Prince William got married to a women named Katherine. They look perfect in their wedding. Looking at them walking down the ilse was breath taking even though I'm actually only watching them through the television. They looked so serene so peace full. Their about to make vows and i always seem to get excited when they reach the part when one and other day i do. :D I cant imagine me getting married. More precisely married to whom. That's the big question i have yet to have a accurate answer. Well at this point I'm sure you know who i wanna marry ;) But if you asked me have i thought about my wedding, the answer is yes definitely. I've always dreamed of getting married in the beach. I want a white themed wedding. I hate pink but pastel pink is an exception due to certain consequences. Honestly if you ask me, truthfully, i don't need a big wedding or a ice sculpture of angles or swans or a 3 story cake, all i want is to live happily ever after with whom ever i choose to say ' I do '. No need no fancy car or whatsoever. Just me and you baby! ;) yes i sound weird. Suddenly i feel so keen on my future wedding, wondering who I'd end up with, who'd hold my hands and look me in the eyes and say i do. I bet I'd smile or giggle when i reach that part i swear. Haha
Okay Enough about wedding madness, time for some real update. Recently I've been good. But having those down days are inevitable.
QUICK TIP #1 : Never tell a severely stressed out person someone else is having more stress than him/her.
Yes I'm stressed, what do you expect !? I have 10 subjects to take in spm, that includes arts. I have accounts project and arts project. Arts might sound easy but trust me its not. And I'm also a cheerleader for my house, and I'm taking my grade 8 piano exam this year. And I'm also a committee that's under probation for my Buddhist center. I must do a good job or else they'll kick me out. D: And I'm also in charge of my class year book designs. Not to mention the amount of homework and tuition's i have. URGHHHHH STRESSED!
Sometimes i can suddenly rapidly change my mood is cause i recalled something or i think too much. Or another contributing factor is... Stress. Recently I've been thinking alot and i mean alot. :/ hmm... Actually I'm quite speechless right now. Cant seem to find the right words to describe how i feel. 'Nostalgic'? Man am i lost for words. I really wanna let out how i feel be i cant. Man for once I'm kinda worried about me. I keep saying 'i can do it' but lately my confidence level is so low that i feel like my existence is not needed.
I used to feel like I'm not good enough, and I'm telling everybody that i no longer feel that way. That's the biggest lie i have ever made. I really didn't wanted to blog lately because i know i will come to this. Feeling like utter crap.
Indulge in love
I think I'm going too deep on this one :/. I never felt so deep before. I dont think i can handle anymore disappointment. OWH AND I'M HAVING TRUST ISSUES. yay?! -.-'
He's quiet and desolate eyes caught my heart.
oh simple things where have you gone,
I'm getting older i need something to rely on.
oh what happen to all those bright summer,
its getting darker i need some sunshine,
is this the place we used to love,
or is it just another place that I've been dreaming of
why don't we go somewhere only we know.
by, keane
You should know i rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else,
i rather be beside you in a storm,
than have it warm by myself,
i rather have hard times together with you than have it easy apart.
I rather have the one who holds a piece of my heart.
by, luther
