I remember the way he look at me and I know I was safe when he’d smile and say don’t worry,I still remember the time when he’d look me in the eye and tell me that he loves me and I knew every things alright, as long as he’s right hear by my side, cause every time we touch , I get this feeling and every time we kiss I swear I could fly, he was like a dream, a fairy tale that’s has no sad endings. But when I open my eyes, he stills remain a dream, he’s never there, it was another childish figment of my imagination. As I waited for my prince charming to return, I knew it was pointless but I never gave up until the day I realize he’s heart is stolen by another. I knew it wasn’t a fairy tale that It’d be too good to be true. I was a wild dreamer until he came and wake me up in other words let me down. Now its just too late for him and his white horse to catch me now. I wont let nobody see me wishing he was mine as I fall deep into the shadows of my past. No matter how much i want him, but i cant let my urges take over.

i'd lie

reminds me or him !!! i really do miss you!

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colours in his eyes

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favourite songs and

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorised for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

♥

for him I'd swim across the Atlantic ocean,
I'd fly across the world,
I'd go the distance and endure what no other has never endure before,
all i want is to be by your side,
breathe the air you breathe,
walk the path you take,
i want to be able to smile back at you when you do something stupid,
capture every moment together,
wipe your every tear, and be there to comfort you,
cause i have faith in you,
but if you ask me if I love him .......I'D LIE !

Party like there's no end, penang trip day 1

Sorry for the long hiatus!!! Just got bored of typing sometimes. XP Anyway, I had recently came back from penang. Gosh! It was a wonderful trip! At least that was the breakthrough of my boring mundane cycle, ' eat, shit, and sleep' cycle, literately! I invited Freda to come along. :D on the behalf of Freda, she had loads of fun too! Well its her 1st time going to penang anyway. For me its like my thousand time!? It’s my mom’s hometown. You may think you’ve seen all the pics in my facebook. But don’t be fooled, there’s still many more I didn’t posted. On our 1st day we didn’t do much cause we used up all of out time travelling and all that. =.=’ took a lot of photos in the car when we were bored. (facebook). We went on a ferry ride and took a lot of pics too but sigh…real lazy to upload again. Sorry. And then once we’ve reach out hotel which is ‘flamingo hotel’, I know …what a name right ?!?! lol the hotel was awesome! But unfortunately, me, freda and brian had to sleep in one room with only 2 beds? Huh…meaning one of us had to share. What do you think …Of course it was me!!! But the good thing was we only had to endure it for one day. We reached the hotel at 6:30 plus … It was a tiring day!!! Dinner was delicious!

Freda and me were observing people eating. And we saw a guy and I suspect his little brother, eating like he has never eating in weeks …LOL … two mouths and the whole damn ‘pao’ is consumed! Watching him eat was like watching tv. Owh look entertainment and delicious food. XD, did I mentioned that penang guys are way hotter than guys In KL. XP seriously. After our luscious dinner, we went back to the hotel and played pool and arcade games =P. We played like there was no end, plus Freda and Brian played like a hardcore gamer!!!! Haha… that’s all for day one!

the "so called arcade"...=.=' damn life lifeless and retro

live to eat or eat to live ?

Gosh I’ve gained weight!!! Is it because i never exercise for a long time that I’ve become lazier by the day? If that’s the case, then I’ll go back to intense badminton training. But I can't possibly go all the way back to my old house, its just way to far. Anyone mind recommending me one, or else I’ll just go down to kayu ara then?! Women hate gaining weight , even 1kg then they'll go on a diet. I just realise that what they meant by diet is "hunger strike"! LOL, is that really necessary? I can't even live one day without lunch and dinner, while they can?! To me the best way to lose some weight is to exercise, it not only keeps you healthy but also help you lose some fats. Hehe, gaining weight doesn’t mean your gaining fats. Gaining weight is simply gaining more nourishment. Its been said that muscles weigh more then fats right? My friend she’s at least 5 feet 5 and she weigh up to 40 kg ain’t that scary, gosh…she’s even lighter than me. I weigh about 46 to 49 …And yes I’m heavy. Don’t have to tease me okay I understand clearly I need to work out again … Really hope tomorrow turns out great! Owh and I keep having nightmares about my PMR results …I’m exceedingly worried.

My aim is simple I only want A’s for my science, math and English that’s all. And to pass my history that would certainly be great! I’m worried about my geo and KHB too…BM I wish for B that’s good enough for me. Sigh…thinking about my results is making me worried, all I know is I got 34 out of 40 for math , yes nothing compared to yours =.=…and 35 for English and last but not least 34 for science… yes my science result is very disappointing. Now even my body figure is failing me. I vowed to go for a jog tomorrow if not I shall not touch the computer!

Not just any jog, but an intense one make sure I reduce some fats from my fragile body! IT’S A MUST DO THING!

new layout and background !!! what do you think ...please leave a comment ! thank you !

Refresh our memories

Have you seen the latest upgrade for our blog posting ??? its awesome !!! lol moving on ...went back puay chai last saturday ...damn it was drop dead fun!!! Met up with Lucas and his friend. Can’t remember his name sorry, what can i say...I’m a forgetful person. I made Lucas hug the lion dance, LMAO! haha i caught him on tape too! But unfortunately he made me swore I wont post it anywhere. Sobs... it would have been and ass kicking clip!

Gosh… I hate my hair …=.=’ But we didn’t go there straight at once, we went to 1u first. Met jian li and Mathew there, then they bring us to the arcade and then we met Jeremy, kok ian and the others. Sadly I did not met the birthday boy before we left. Terrible planing =.=’ supposedly 30 people are attending Norman’s, siao won and Muin’s birthday. And I only saw like 8?

 Ughh… don’t bother, not my birthday anyway. My legs hurt like hell walking in 2 and half-inch heels for 8 hours straight! AHH… lucky Freda did not follow me attempt such silly stuff. Well, at least I got to met my old friend Chun kit and wei yue! Yeahh! How long has it been…3 years? I’m glad I came back to my old school …=) I would like to go back just one more time with Freda. Really wanna let her experience how if feels like when you’ve got nothing to worry about except for danger of course…XP whomever it is, your reading this, let me tell you something, if you haven’t live the life I lived meaning you’ve never live before! Well… Its not much, and it doesn’t cost unless you got yourself injured, then you can’t help it.

Owh and mom and dad decided to go to Melbourne on next years march  holidays =) yeah!!! And yes I’ve been to Australia before, but there’s no harm going again right ? And they decided that during the June holidays, we’ll go to England !!! HELL YEAH! Yay…I get to meet my auntie Ann and uncle chin poh!! Wheeee… how long since I seen them …hmm no idea! My gosh… … I can’t wait! I’m so excited already! I’m done with today’s post, will be posting soon byes !

TTFN

same boring post, different day

sorry for the long hiatus ....been busy lately, with all the planing and all that. sigh ...Going on a filled trip soon, guess where ... penang !!! That's right PENANG ! Heard that theres a lot of food there. Not only that, they are delicious too !!! Planing on bringing Freda there to join the fun. I would give anything to watch the sunset on the beach, where the mild waves touch your toes. lovely indeed !!! hmm...Cant wait for new moon ...can you? DAMN IT !!! I have to wait till i come back from penang, then only i get to watch new moon ! Hmm..anyone wanna come ?Real tired now, its 3:30 am in the morning and all i can think about is penang, and the stuff we're gonna do there ..=.=' ugh...and I cant stop thinking about my PMR results ...and what class I'm gonna go in. Nervous break down here!? Sigh ....I'm extremely worried about what class I'm in next year, cause ...er....erm... i have a feeling that i might end up in the last class..=.=' Not that i failed or anything, in fact my results are more
on the 60 to 70 plus plus ...Wanna know why ...cause i did not submit my class form. The form is suppose to let you choose whatever package of studies you want then they'll evaluate according to your results ... But ya know the irresponsible, couldn't care less and forgetful me ..hehe. Sigh, now i want to submit the form but i can't cause schools out ...So I've decided that on the same day we're gonna get our PMR results I'll submit it and BEG the teacher to please kindly accept it !!! DAMN...i'm terrible ! What to do, I am me...you can't change who I am ...only I can ..weather i want to do it or not its my choice.. So don't come telling me what to do or what i should do. Nah ...i was
only joking ...as long as its a friendly offer i don't mind even if it cost a little sacrifice...=) Thats what friends are for right ? Okay, i'll update the past tomorrow, for now you shall endure my boring post for a while ...




TTFN!

laugh as long as you live, love as much as you breathe♥

To love or be loved?

hmm, love... Strong word. But no one knows when to use it. They say love is a very strong emotional and sexual feeling for someone. Some say love is a river that drowns the tender reed, others may say love, it is like a razor that leaves your soul to bleed. But deep under all this is there something more, or it is just another figment of our imagination? Hmm, all this commotions is driving me crazy...its like an extremely confusing roller coaster ride. The phrase 'I love you' its just too commonly used, does it really mean anything anymore??? Usually they say that ' I love you' only takes 3 second to say it, 3 hours to explain it, and a lifetime to prove it !!!

Well.. if you really need a life time to prove it then how can you say that your BF loves you for who you are and will never leave you or you can just tell me that these quotes mean nothing. Hmm... weird huh.. Began to understand, how can we make conclusions at this age, that we've found our true love, I doubt that they will have a happy ending.'ohh.. look my BF just bought me a beautiful ring as our anniversary'. Are you sure he bought it through sweat and tears just to make you smile or parents gave him the money to buy fake happiness for you?

' ohh we've bee SO long (2 years) together, I know he loves me and I know it'll last forever'. Forever is a long time, maybe too long until one day he got bored and finally fall for someone else. Or maybe not ...for all you know maybe you've been holding him back all these years.

They say communication plays an important part in a relationship, so does that mean that IF you do not communicate then your 'love' in the relationship fades away ?

What love are you talking about now, is it the love of helping others ? Or is it the love that you kept private between you and your lover ? Confusing huh... well at least i am but still, I'm young and maybe too inqusitive, I still have a long journey through life to face. like my blog title, life is so beautiful but yet its full of complications. Time is slowly running out, each and every second you'll grow oldder and bigger. So I'll just
live my life to the fullest and make every day counts.

Goodbye my trusted friend, promise me this isn't the end♥

I wish you all the best and may your dreams and wishes all come true.

Emotions ran through my head
I found myself wishing I was dead
All because you were moving away
I knew I would never see you another day

You were my classmate, and my best friend,
are you sure we have reached the end?
You made me happy, I became carefree
You made it feel okay for me to be me

It's been several years until today
but it feels like it was only yesterday
I remember everything we used to do
It may seem impossible, but it is true,

all i want to say is 'thank you'

Bad news, my dearest friend sue ling is leaving the country, as in migrating. I was like what !!!! Aww, such a sad news, although we're not that close anymore but still shes my good friend so I'm gonna post this as a farewell post to my dear friend sue. We used to be best friend.. but things got out of hand. We both go to our respective paths and our friendship faded away. But as i recall, we were one hell of a group along side with li hui and kar wei. Sue, you were the possessive one back then, who always wants people to stick with you. Don't worry i totally understand how you feel. Speaking of stick with you, you used to love this song by the pussycat dolls. And every time you asked me to sing it to you. What a memory. They say that love and friendship is just a triumph of our imagination, but to me is a learning journey that we have to face every single day of our lives. They say that friends comes and go, but to me you're the type of friend that will stay in my heart forever, even if we're far apart. Well hope you enjoy it there, and hope you make lots of new friends and i bid you farewell. Owh,, and hope you get to see Erika Chen ;D