missing it all!

good bye my dear ravena ! we're really gonna miss you ! XD Make sure you remember me ! Or else I'll murder you in your sleep ! better yet in your dreams !

according to him

Finlay i get to touch the god damn com! ugh... honestly i am damn tired right now. But i really just cant wait to use the com. Plus i cant use it when school starts, so mind as well use like mad 1st. :D AWWW... seems to me like every body's moving school ! God damn it! whyy! 1st elysia, then shin keat, then wing keong, then ming jie now muin and raveena is moving school too! Yeashh... why... i'll miss you all ! Miss wing keongs mischievousness and his singing ! XD haha..never mind then.

Tomorrow i have badminton training again... grrrr... so tiring lar. Then stright after that tuition. wft!? Anyways, i don't wanna blabber so much about my hectic schedules. Hmm, today is god damn tiring ! Went to school at 7 until 12:30 then went to atria after that walked back to school and so called 'studied' until 5:30 went straight to terry tee's add math tuition until 8:15 came back and ate dinner, and now i'm playing the com =) hehehe.

Goshh... yap tyron has god like hands that can play awesome songs! While i watched from the sideline, i tried to figure out the keys, hahaha. And i still owe rubens a Frisbee XD. i'm soo sorry ruben ! I really am, I'll buy one back for you okay =) i sware ! I'll try to go 1u tomorrow and see if i get to buy one.I'm not sure if our going green proposal is accepted. I hope it is ! The prize is 3000 dollars and 4 scholarship to Standford collage. YA, wow! haha. goshh i absolutely love tae yang and taylor lautner ! XD ahhh... *screams* currently addicted to life after you by Chris ! But of course i am totally in love with wedding dress lar ! Going to watch Sherlock Holmes tomorrow. And yes its an old show, and i'm not outdated its just that i dont get to watch so much movies these days =.=' gosh i'm tired ! i can barely keep my eyes open ! =.=' yawn ................

should i just forget it?

i must be fantasizing to much,

i'll never be with him,

i try to reach out,

but i hesitate cause i know it'll be just another down fall! sighh... if life's a little simpler, imagine how much happiness it would have been.

i love this song!

according to you by

Orianthi

according to you,

I'm stupid
I'm useless
I can't do anything right
According to you
I'm difficult
Hard to please
Forever changing my mind
I'm a mess in a dress
Can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you
According to you

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny,irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you

According to you
I'm boring
I'm moody
You can't take me any place
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with it
According to you
According to you

But according to him
I'm beautiful,incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you

I need to feel appreciated
like I'm not hated
Oh, no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay

According to me
you're stupid
you're useless
you can't do anything right

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you [you, you]
According to you [you, you]

According to you
I'm stupid
I'm useless
I can't do anything right
i'm stupid, i'm useless i cant do anything right!

But according to him i'm beautiful, incredible,

he cant get me out of his head.

according to him i'm funny, irresistible,

everything he ever wanted.

He likes me for everything i'm not according to you!

I FINALLY STARTED my eclipse! hehe just started yesterday and planning on finishing it by Monday XD =) I dont exactly have much time to read books okay ! You think your schedule is tight, wait till you meet mine! Don't mind my typing and spelling error cause i am very tired to focus.

TTFN!

say what ?

ahhhh school again !!! grrr... haven't finish my add math tuition homework ! ahhh grrr... still got 2 more question i dont know how to do ! forget it ...school homework =.=' whatever lar , who cares lar. Done accounts but haven't done my karangan. Damn lazy lar... hehe! Now i'm looking for a new piano teacher. grrrr, now i'm f**king piss. yeashh... dont ask why. Whats up with her man !?!? ahhh forget it. Anyways, i just bought a new bag ... wheeeee =) cost Rm70. Mom's gonna kill me XD. But, its about time i get a new sling bag. Tomorrow is another hetic cycle !=.='. yeashh... life's getting mundane. blahh, who cares larh. hmmm... tomorrow need to bring a story book right? i'm just gonna bring twilight. since i've already read it finish and its the thinnest book i have. And yes i don't read much. In fact i hate reading! hehe... yesterday came back from badminton training and look what I've got ! =D

sexy right! XD ... this is what i call awesome! anyways i am real lazy to blog right now cause there's nothing much to talk about these days =.=' besides school, love crap and studies =.='Boring lar ... haven't even have time to read finish my stupid eclipse book. Yes, i haven't. i've been kinda sad lately. Don't wanna complain about it, i'd rather keep it to myself but, sighh...i think i'm gonna blow if i keep up with this. I recently just got mentally rejected=X... pshhh....i'll just have to deal with it i guess =.='Some pain cant be describe by words right ? So just forget what i just said okay =) I'm so totally in love with TAE YANG!!! *screams* !!! ahhhh.... he's soo hot and he has a memorising voice, that goes along very well with his outstanding dancing moves ! Adding to that he can play piano too! Ahh, he has this gangster look but it suits him, not like some people who tries to act gangster but ended up real pathetic. Seriously ! ahh, don't touch him, he's mine. he's now my property ! tae yang tm! a i think i am gonna sign off now. Scared i cant wake up tomorrow. XD normally i can't so better go to sleep now. Got to pack my bag now, byes !

ipod nano 5th generation ! its mine!

TTFN!

love bites, XOXO

Gosh I'm beginning to like my class 4 meranti !!! hehe, the people there are damn funny !!! for example like wing keong and e-way and Jordan. The 3 musketeers !!! XD HAHA i'm sitting beside pearl-lyn and khai yee!!! They're damn fun to be with man !!! pearl-lyn the 'BIMBO, AND K-POP FREAK'! And khai yee 'the girl you can never keep secrets from'. Me and pearl-lyn just cant stop babbling ! haha We talk and gossip like there's no end ! haha i laughed like hell reading wing keong's composition book about the urban area. LMAFO!!! lol... Jordan was surprisingly quiet today !?!?! what's up with him man !?!?kena sprayed by douche bag Justin yup!! grrr... i had to go to tuition wet =.='. blahh dont care about him larh.

My gosh, I've fallen for TWO freaking animals =.='

Cant tell you the details my apologies ... as long as their both are mammals.

Unless your close to me, you wouldn't get what the heck i'm saying !

hehe. I met jean Philippe today. goshh he's so hot but who wants him man... that pervert ! XD the worst thing is he's only form 1 ~ and he called me fat =.=' grrr.. !nvm don't bother anymore...Studies ? Okay larh, i survived the 1st two weeks, not sure how long i can keep up with the crap i'm learning. Add math, masih boleh tahan, econs er... not too bad, accounts ... die !!! wtf is audit and all the other confusing crap i'm learning ! Brain storm like hell and still dont get it ! Gosh i need help !!! S.O.S MAN ! DAMN IT LARH SCREW ACCOUNTS ! Currently watching 90210 baybehh!!! love Ty Collins, he's so hot but he's such a player man =.='. Lucas owes me a ring !!! grrr... he made mine got confiscated.hehe... 'you bloody immature dung ass'!!! You damn blur weih...i pitty them man !

sighh... sorry to go off topic ...but 'HE' if you know who then shuddup! seriously appears everywhere man ! i see him literately everyday accept for maybe sat and Sunday ! But other than that i see him 24-7! goshh how do you expect me to get over him ! yeashhh....i am like thinking of him 24-7 and its drop dead hard to get over him ! But were you serious about it or I'm just too soft hearted! why am i fussing about 'him' ! he's too good to be true larh. I must be dreaming too hard, and now its time to wake up. I just realise that i'm now seriously alone... it took me one year to realise that i'm alone with all the freedom i want. Having all the freedom, but no one to share it with is plain lonely. At times i feel so alone, as others enjoys their sheer bliss with their soul mates while i watch them from the sideline. (dont get me wrong)

*sighs*... i should stop it with me and my ignorant love-sickness... =.='Gosh, after so many times i'm still so naive =.='. i'm tired now after a long day in school from 7 to 5:30 then went straight to tuition and came back at 8:15. goshh then tomorrow i have badminton training then straight after that i have bm tuition =.=' grrr.... ahh. Me and my hectic schedules are driving me crazy!!! Now i feel the pressure ! And i'm so darn sick of it !

TTFN,

signing off now,

really lazy to redo my blog.

i'm really lazy to redo my blog so i'm just gonna leave it empty for a while XD. So bear with it. thank you !

anyone ready for school!!! I know i'm not !

my hair grew! yippee! still waiting for it to grow longer ! goshhh, i don't wanna go back to school! i'm having so much fun now! The big problem is , if i didn't get in sub science the I.C.T package, my dad wants me to move school. =( its either beconhouse sri inai or taman sea or who knows what!?!?! =.=' Now trying to apply to get in sub !!! sighs... now i have to sleep early and wake up early again. Lazy lar... i'm so getting use to sleeping late nowadays. sighs...lucky for nick, no school, don't have exams, need not waking up early =.='.
parents are now asking me to stop using the com and prepare for tomorrow. But what do i need to prepare!?!?! I don't even know the time tables yet!!! And i don't even know what class am i going. And they're gonna dismantle the com unless its a weekend or holidays! its like study, study , study !!! non stop! Next year is no child's play !!! its all work and no fooling around....But.... my attitude still remains the same okay. I'm soo not clipping my hair or pulling up my socks !!! rings are the love so I'm still gonna wear it ! XD hehe, got a new bag, pencil box and a new future ahead of me! So excited to meet crys, free, xinz and amy tomorrow !!! ahhh, panicking now !!!! I seriously wanna know what class am i going to! haha hehe, now i'm bored. ahh, anything I'm just gonna be in my facebook looking around ! =)
that's all for today's post. Good night and hope tomorrow's gonna be a good day !!!

TTFN !

happy new year !!! good bye 2009 and hello 2010!

is anyone using their blog these days?

haha new year count down celebration in BUBS was a blast!!! it was damn fun !!! Some how you've got the feeling like you've drank alot! Its as if we were drunk ! We helped decorate the center at 12, well ...except for me larh, cause you know me...the late bird the decoration looks like an after party look. Any ways, today i just went out with crys and xinz, goshh am i tired !! we bought the same tops, haha, i bought black, brown, white and grey, xin yii bought black and grey, crys bought brown and maroon ... haha =) going to crystals 365 church even tomorrow, really excited to meet nick and bryan ch'ng !!! hehe... met them throught the net long time ago, well long enough for me that is ! But never actually saw them in person. owh well. really tired and busy these few days. so i'll blog later! just to let you know, when school starts i am not alowed to use the com unless it's a holiday or weekends !

I did fine =)

Don't bloody hell ask me about my pmr results already okay! I didn't did that well to get in pure science but i think i manage to get in sub, i hope!? Come on, give me a break, i got h1n1 DURING PMR =.=' having a few A's is good enough for a h1n1 victim. I vomited during geo and i had high fever during science 2... but lucky me, i still got an A for science.=) Those who already know then do me a favor ' Stop telling every one'! Thank you =) Congrats to all who got 6 A's and above =) Goshh, i am scared of form 4 man ! No objectives ... talking about it gives me the chills already. 1st bad thing, you'd have to study sejarah! 2nd bad thing, every thing inside the sejarah book is crap! Trust me ... then 3rd bad thing, you have to write an essay about the crap that's published.=.=' grrrr ....WHY CANT WE HAVE SEJARAH IN ENGLISH? And we cant even protest. yeashhh... but seriously form 4 ain't child's play, I'm gonna study my but off, like I've never study before!!! But my old habits will still remain the same ;D. I'm still too stubborn to listen to discipline rules. Hair ;D remain the same, socks ;D remain the same too, attitude ;D remain the same too, like i give a fucking damn to those hypocrite and morons that think they are holy great=.='. i'll make it real clear to those ass holes out there, its either I'm your friend or enemy. I can be a great friend, and i also can be your worst nightmare! Yes i do have an annoying sense of humor and yes i tend to annoy people sometimes. Well, that's me =) You can change who you really are deep inside, but you can change a persons bad habits of course. Whether they wanna change that is XD. That's all for today, now I'm kinda busy watching ray William Johnson's clips and man that dude can really make people laugh !


TTFN!

I remember the way he look at me and I know I was safe when he’d smile and say don’t worry,I still remember the time when he’d look me in the eye and tell me that he loves me and I knew every things alright, as long as he’s right hear by my side, cause every time we touch , I get this feeling and every time we kiss I swear I could fly, he was like a dream, a fairy tale that’s has no sad endings. But when I open my eyes, he stills remain a dream, he’s never there, it was another childish figment of my imagination. As I waited for my prince charming to return, I knew it was pointless but I never gave up until the day I realize he’s heart is stolen by another. I knew it wasn’t a fairy tale that It’d be too good to be true. I was a wild dreamer until he came and wake me up in other words let me down. Now its just too late for him and his white horse to catch me now. I wont let nobody see me wishing he was mine as I fall deep into the shadows of my past. No matter how much i want him, but i cant let my urges take over.

i'd lie

reminds me or him !!! i really do miss you!

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colours in his eyes

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favourite songs and

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorised for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

♥

for him I'd swim across the Atlantic ocean,
I'd fly across the world,
I'd go the distance and endure what no other has never endure before,
all i want is to be by your side,
breathe the air you breathe,
walk the path you take,
i want to be able to smile back at you when you do something stupid,
capture every moment together,
wipe your every tear, and be there to comfort you,
cause i have faith in you,
but if you ask me if I love him .......I'D LIE !

Party like there's no end, penang trip day 1

Sorry for the long hiatus!!! Just got bored of typing sometimes. XP Anyway, I had recently came back from penang. Gosh! It was a wonderful trip! At least that was the breakthrough of my boring mundane cycle, ' eat, shit, and sleep' cycle, literately! I invited Freda to come along. :D on the behalf of Freda, she had loads of fun too! Well its her 1st time going to penang anyway. For me its like my thousand time!? It’s my mom’s hometown. You may think you’ve seen all the pics in my facebook. But don’t be fooled, there’s still many more I didn’t posted. On our 1st day we didn’t do much cause we used up all of out time travelling and all that. =.=’ took a lot of photos in the car when we were bored. (facebook). We went on a ferry ride and took a lot of pics too but sigh…real lazy to upload again. Sorry. And then once we’ve reach out hotel which is ‘flamingo hotel’, I know …what a name right ?!?! lol the hotel was awesome! But unfortunately, me, freda and brian had to sleep in one room with only 2 beds? Huh…meaning one of us had to share. What do you think …Of course it was me!!! But the good thing was we only had to endure it for one day. We reached the hotel at 6:30 plus … It was a tiring day!!! Dinner was delicious!

Freda and me were observing people eating. And we saw a guy and I suspect his little brother, eating like he has never eating in weeks …LOL … two mouths and the whole damn ‘pao’ is consumed! Watching him eat was like watching tv. Owh look entertainment and delicious food. XD, did I mentioned that penang guys are way hotter than guys In KL. XP seriously. After our luscious dinner, we went back to the hotel and played pool and arcade games =P. We played like there was no end, plus Freda and Brian played like a hardcore gamer!!!! Haha… that’s all for day one!

the "so called arcade"...=.=' damn life lifeless and retro

live to eat or eat to live ?

Gosh I’ve gained weight!!! Is it because i never exercise for a long time that I’ve become lazier by the day? If that’s the case, then I’ll go back to intense badminton training. But I can't possibly go all the way back to my old house, its just way to far. Anyone mind recommending me one, or else I’ll just go down to kayu ara then?! Women hate gaining weight , even 1kg then they'll go on a diet. I just realise that what they meant by diet is "hunger strike"! LOL, is that really necessary? I can't even live one day without lunch and dinner, while they can?! To me the best way to lose some weight is to exercise, it not only keeps you healthy but also help you lose some fats. Hehe, gaining weight doesn’t mean your gaining fats. Gaining weight is simply gaining more nourishment. Its been said that muscles weigh more then fats right? My friend she’s at least 5 feet 5 and she weigh up to 40 kg ain’t that scary, gosh…she’s even lighter than me. I weigh about 46 to 49 …And yes I’m heavy. Don’t have to tease me okay I understand clearly I need to work out again … Really hope tomorrow turns out great! Owh and I keep having nightmares about my PMR results …I’m exceedingly worried.

My aim is simple I only want A’s for my science, math and English that’s all. And to pass my history that would certainly be great! I’m worried about my geo and KHB too…BM I wish for B that’s good enough for me. Sigh…thinking about my results is making me worried, all I know is I got 34 out of 40 for math , yes nothing compared to yours =.=…and 35 for English and last but not least 34 for science… yes my science result is very disappointing. Now even my body figure is failing me. I vowed to go for a jog tomorrow if not I shall not touch the computer!

Not just any jog, but an intense one make sure I reduce some fats from my fragile body! IT’S A MUST DO THING!

new layout and background !!! what do you think ...please leave a comment ! thank you !

Refresh our memories

Have you seen the latest upgrade for our blog posting ??? its awesome !!! lol moving on ...went back puay chai last saturday ...damn it was drop dead fun!!! Met up with Lucas and his friend. Can’t remember his name sorry, what can i say...I’m a forgetful person. I made Lucas hug the lion dance, LMAO! haha i caught him on tape too! But unfortunately he made me swore I wont post it anywhere. Sobs... it would have been and ass kicking clip!

Gosh… I hate my hair …=.=’ But we didn’t go there straight at once, we went to 1u first. Met jian li and Mathew there, then they bring us to the arcade and then we met Jeremy, kok ian and the others. Sadly I did not met the birthday boy before we left. Terrible planing =.=’ supposedly 30 people are attending Norman’s, siao won and Muin’s birthday. And I only saw like 8?

 Ughh… don’t bother, not my birthday anyway. My legs hurt like hell walking in 2 and half-inch heels for 8 hours straight! AHH… lucky Freda did not follow me attempt such silly stuff. Well, at least I got to met my old friend Chun kit and wei yue! Yeahh! How long has it been…3 years? I’m glad I came back to my old school …=) I would like to go back just one more time with Freda. Really wanna let her experience how if feels like when you’ve got nothing to worry about except for danger of course…XP whomever it is, your reading this, let me tell you something, if you haven’t live the life I lived meaning you’ve never live before! Well… Its not much, and it doesn’t cost unless you got yourself injured, then you can’t help it.

Owh and mom and dad decided to go to Melbourne on next years march  holidays =) yeah!!! And yes I’ve been to Australia before, but there’s no harm going again right ? And they decided that during the June holidays, we’ll go to England !!! HELL YEAH! Yay…I get to meet my auntie Ann and uncle chin poh!! Wheeee… how long since I seen them …hmm no idea! My gosh… … I can’t wait! I’m so excited already! I’m done with today’s post, will be posting soon byes !

TTFN